Ive craved the decadence of tipsy words
Of whispered tales upon sensitive skin
Of goosebumps raised from static touch
Of melting sighs on caramel poems
Of confessions among breaking rains
Of old world charms in new age frames
Of fragrant romances from old hollywood
Of electric sex from erotic books
Ive craved for your name melting in mine
Of shattering moons sold by the dime
Ive craved for you from god knows when
A thirst unquenched till we meet again
Keep those hands on my cool skin
Let it warm up and burn under your heat
Hold me tight against your chest
Capturing every escaping beat
Weave in your fingers into my scalp
And trace my neck with salty kisses
I cant hold on anymore i need help
Shatter me into pieces, only a glass doll
Let me scatter upon this night
Lick the trails of lust , down my chest which rolls
Paint on me any color of your choosing
Let me taste a piece of you
On the verge of sanity. … im loosing
The hold i guess which i never had
Its Very late
I count the date
Something sinks
A grey within the pinks
Its the day
How do i say
This hour when we first met
Something off it sets
This time that year
When you and i were near
A sense of bliss
In that first awkward kiss
When i had hopes still
The day which today kills
It happend so very organic
And how it induces panic
Once this day love in me awoke
Today rides upon a cloud of smoke
I see every memory vaporize
Puff after puff, still i recognise
In scrips and stories i read once
Prove to be myths and fake and so i say hence
It’ll be good for my soul to turn of the lights
And hide under the blanket till comes the night
When all will be well
In your name my heart wont swell
Till i find my own little place
Where there wont be another haze
Where my horizons shall finally meet
Until my soul comes back and greets
He didn’t hold me from behind
Or laid kisses on my spine
Neither was it a tug
Stripped on the rug
It wasnt a warm fireplace
Nor before it did passion race
It was the hidden sign
Of shy lust and tipsy wine
It was wicked candlelit stars
And confessions of favourite movies and chocolate bars
It was glittering eyes and runny noses
A love for lilies and not roses
Tween crackling conversations And burning want
Holding onto slipping reservations and cosy qualms
I thought i did
I found my missing piece that someone once hid
That brief moment of absolute silence
Right before the trembling music hits you
The tiny skip of breath
Before your heart pumps once more time
That fleeting moment of scare
Just before your eyes seek out your loved ones in the crowd
That absolute second of realization before an eternity of ignorance
Have you felt it ever
Touched that single moment with your being
Realized the knock of every locked up feeling
Just before the wall cracks and white noise seeps through
Between conversations and discussions
Documents and deadlines
Meetings and mails
Typing and talking
Have you ever felt even more broken than you already are
And yet built up stronger than you ever were before today
Have you too…..
it dropped
one followed by the other
turning white at her touch
leaving behind the cage of the orange flame
free to run free, gliding down her chest
resting over scarlet skin underneath
the waxy seal of forbidden love
hanging by a thread and two chains
the faint sheen of want
begging for more yet silent from words
“Where?” his question , more than but a whisper
Fingers guiding his gaze to the ache tween… “there…”
Crumbling every text book rule
Washing away all the norm they had told
away from the eyes of the raiding world
kneeling before her dark fairytale
finally free to kiss her submission
When voices fall flat while the music still plays
And loneliness holds your hand but the crowd still stays
While the clock ticks away And the time never leaves
Whiles you are wide awake and the dreams still heave
The glass now empty yet brimming with wine
And you still on my skin but never to be mine
The lies still pretty and the promises ripe
I dont think i am ready to let your memory wipe
He inked me like a secret map
Hues of faint scarlet and drops of plans
Etch after etch his directions taking shape
His serpentine intensions gliding over me
The candlelit night flickers a bit
Almost losing its breath over us
Shying away from the bold lines and curves of me
Kisses soldered onto every breath
Almost asking for the pain of his grip
Just enough to seek the cool of his binds
Barely together under his sun lit gaze
My will to keep my eyes from closing melting with the candles
My strength to stay afloat in the rush of passion eroding away
The sin within moves with his fingers like a charm
And his head bows before the reflection of his own ecstasy in my eyes
Looking through the globe
Snow gently falling and resting
Upon rusty skin and turn key heart
Awaiting your voice to pierce through
Waiting for you to shatter me
Hoping to feel like a real girl
Aching to breathe once again
Wanting just you to put me to pieces
Make it alright again
Make me not feel this pain
Kiss away every blue stain
Hold me tight and let me bathe in rain
Peel away each fabric
Painfully urgent and quick
Bare my skin to you, feel me slick
Drown this rugged day in my moans
Let not the grime stick
Show me the good lovin
Show me the earth movin
Make it alright again
Make pleasure from this pain
